Monday, December 27th, 2004
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7:01 pm - Lady of the Evening, Lady of the Evening, Lady of the Evening.
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Goddamn it's been a while. Um, my xmas was awesome. Jayme is home until the third. He's buying me a tattoo for xmas. And he got me a Paul Frank pillow and blanket!! I love Paul Frank!! My mom got me some cool shit and I haven't seen my dad yet. He wants to get a phone line into my house so he can get a hold of me. I spent alot of xmas with Jayme. I straightened my sisters hair. And I got pictures.
I'm getting my hair cut on wednesday. Then I wanna re-dye it cuz since most of its dead, it doesn't hold color too well. So I'm chopping like, 6 inches off of it.
And I went to machester today to give Kim moral support and hold her hand while she got her tongue pierced. On the way there, we decided to get mine done too. So now my tongue is pierced. Hehehehehe.
I gotta look at the new Tattoo magazine I got. And High Times. I got a bunch of books too. I'm happy. New stuff to read!!
10 points to the 1st person to tell me what the subject title is from. C'mon!! It's wicked easy!
current mood:  horny
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Wednesday, December 22nd, 2004
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1:04 am
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Tuesday, December 21st, 2004
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10:47 pm - Catching up...
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Damn it's been a while. Okay, Happy Birthday to ![[info]](http://piktures.deadjournal.com/userinfo.gif) mzsmokie420!!
And Blessed Yule to you all.
( Convo between Amy and I after she had a Tim Sighting )
And it just continued like that... about random shit. I'm not even gonna say anything else about his threats and whatnot, cuz he'll just bitch in his journal that I don't read lol.
Amy you're my condom!!
I picked up a camera(actually two) at work so I can have pics and stuff of me and others. And hopefully scan them like I've been promising to do for a loooong time (Sorry guys!!), so you can all see my sexy new hair and shit. And I'm gonna atke a bunch of pics with me and Jayme, cuz I need some recent ones.
But anyway, gotta take a shower and try to clean my room... hahahahaha... that's still funny. I think I told you guys about that... did I? I know Amy knows it and obviously Jayme, cuz he's the one who said it... oh man.
current mood:  amused
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Saturday, December 18th, 2004
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12:14 am
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Monday, December 13th, 2004
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5:46 pm
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Mike- He should just do himself a favor and kill him self.
Mike- He's such a moron. I can't believe he actually said that.
Me-I know.
I miss everyone in Mass. I can't wait til Jayme is done with school so I can go back home. I miss Beverly and Salem and walking there and going to the beach and getting seaglass and watching the waves...
That beach has so many memories...
Amy- we need to cause trouble ASAP. It's been way too long.
current mood:  nostalgic
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5:37 pm - All the torment and the pain...
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She is everything to me
An unreqited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable
She's a myth that I have to beleive in
All I need to make it real
is one more reason
I don't know what to do...
I've had the past two days off. Did a bunch of sleeping. Alot of thinking. I hate thinking because I have no control over where my mind goes, and it uusally goes to whatever or whoever is bothering me...
Everybody makes mistakes.
current mood: nostalgic
current music: Vermillion >>> Slipknot
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3:21 pm
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I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh-Ah
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everythings all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh-Ah
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah I walk alone, I walk a...
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone!
current mood:  cynical
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6:26 am
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Did he really expect to come to a "conclusion" with that comment he left in here? I doubt it.
Jayme better watch out for the "emotional baggage that I bring to the table".
This really pisses me off. I'll never have closure. And I'm sorry, but I think I can be a little emotional about losing my baby. Never even having a chance. I had to choose between them and I lost both. And I loved them both.
I wonder what it's like to be able to destroy someone you say you love and want to spend the rest of your life with and never think twice.
Everyone makes mistakes. Truer words were never spoken (or typed).
i won't let this build up inside of me
current mood:  discontent
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4:54 am
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Have'nt updated or commented in a few days, and I won't be getting to the comments anytime soon... which really sucks cuz I'm a comment WHORE!!
and i wish, i could sleep, but i can't lay on my back, for the knife, for everyday, that i've known you...
Alot has been on my mind about alot of things... and it really sucks. Because I can't change myself, or anyone else, and I wish I could.
Victim of Circumstance. Or so it seems.
I hate my life.
current mood:  depressed
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Wednesday, December 8th, 2004
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7:56 pm
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My kitty's gone... Justin took him away... =(
Well, he was Justin's, but you wouldn't know it cuz Justin was never here, so I ended up taking care of him. I miss him.
I dyed my hair last night, it's dark auburn, I'll post pics when I can!
Kim and Casey took their comps into their room, so I dunno how often you'll be hearing from me. I wanna try to get my own computer. But I have no money.
current mood:  sad
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Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
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5:02 pm
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16 Days until Jayme comes home... you have no idea how excited I am. And what I'm going to do him. *wink*
I finally bought hair dye after talking about it for over a month. I don't think I'll do it tonight tho, cuz you can't wash your hair for 24 hours before dying it, cuz your hair needs its own oils and shit to help protect it. I'm gonna help Kim re-dye hers though. I think i also need to get an eyebrow pencil, cuz I'm dying my hair reddish and my eyebrows are blonde, so they will disappear and that will not be so good.
I'm gonna look so hot.
I'm gonna pick up a disposable camera tomorrow and have Kim take pics of me THAT WILL ACTUALLY COME OUT THIS TIME!! so I can post for all of you who haven't seen me in a while and are going through Arlene withdrawl.
I will ease your pain.
Ugh, I was at work yesterday fom 9 in the morning until 10 at night. It friggen sucked. Cuz Kim and Casey are my ride, and they both had to work 5-10 and I was scheduled to work 9-5. But I got free McDonald's french fries cuz there's a kid that works there that I know. And he wants me... lol (Hi Brian!!) All the guys there asked for back massages because well, you know, that's what I'm known for. *brushes shoulder*
Anyways, peace bitches, nothing could ruin this good mood of mine, cuz I got 12 hours of sleep so I'm effin wired!!!
current mood:  bouncy
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4:29 pm
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Monday, December 6th, 2004
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12:20 am
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I went to my mommy's house today. It felt so good to be near civilization again... lol. I miss my mom and my sister and stepfather so much. I had a great time. Just hanging out and talking and stuff. I can't wait until I can move back to Mass. NH sucks ass. Except the whole no tax thing. That's pretty cool.
I gave my sister her presents and sheloved them. I can't believe she's 7. You don't understand, she's like, my daughter. I was 12 when she was born. I was there for everything. I helped raise her. That's why we're so close. I'd kill anyone for her. No question.
17 Days until Jayme comes back... yes, the countdown begins again.
current mood:  tired
current music: Until it Sleeps >>> Metallica
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Sunday, December 5th, 2004
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12:18 am
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Saturday, December 4th, 2004
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8:10 pm - stuff...
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10 hour day today. Joy. Woke up at 7am after falling asleep around 3am. At work at 8am left a little after 6pm. It's a good thing I get paid!!
My manager talked to me about the training I'm gonna be getting to be the Beauty Advisor. I can't wait. It sounds like such a cool job. And I can always be transferred to another store if need be. Like next year when Jayme comes back from school. I can go to a CVS on the North Shore.
Ahh, home. I get to go see my little sis tomorrow and give her some birthday presents and spend the whole day with her. And my stepfather said he had a ton of food I like, so I'm probably gonna gain all the weight I lost!! NOOOO... lol, I don't care... food... *drools*
My ears are on fire!! (I got them pierced yesterday).
current mood:  hungry
current music: My december >>> linkin park
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Friday, December 3rd, 2004
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3:16 pm - Do this.
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1. Reply to this post if you want me to tell you how cool you are!
2. Watch my journal over the next few days for a post just about you and why you rock my socks.
3. Post these instructions in your journal and give your friends a much needed dose of love and admiration
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Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
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8:36 pm
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No heat=suck
Yeah, no heat until tomorrow. Sucky. Real sucky.
My money finally went through. Jesus Christ. After I went to the bank and gave them a huge fucking attitude. So my rent is paid. Finally.
current mood: cold
current music: I put a spell on you- Marilyn Manson
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1:12 am - PISSED
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I'm so fucking pissed off. What the fuck. No matter what I do, shit always goes wrong...
GODDAMMIT!!
I have no money in my bank account. I deposited my fucking check last SATURDAY. It still hasn't gone through. rent's due and my little sister's birthday is tomorrow. So I have NO MONEY to buy her anything. On top of it, I prolly won't be able to go to her birthday party, cuz I have an 8 hr shift that I can't get out of.
current mood:  pissed off
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Tuesday, November 30th, 2004
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6:49 am
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Hrmm... I wanna keep this updated for all my non DJ friends, but I have no life!! I work all the time, but hey, money is good. I need it
OMG, I saw this awesome amethyst ring I wanna get my mom. It's huge(the amethyst I mean). It's on sale until the 24th. I wanted to get her a ring after christmas, cuz she's all like,"Don't worry about me, you're just starting out and you need to save money...". Which is true. But I have a really good paying job that pays real well and a promotion coming up. But I really want her to have that ring. Even though she was like, Nazi Mom, I still love her and she deaerves it for putting up with my bullshit!! I think I'm gonna talk to my stepfather about it, I don't wanna split the cost, I wanna pay for most of it, but a little help would be nice!
Nothing else really going on. Jayme was here, he left, and um... yeah.
Oh, and kim wants to give me her cell phone, well, actually have me use it and give her the money for the bill, cuz she wants a new one, but she still has a year left on her plan, and its costly to cancel. Yay! Cell phone!
-me
current mood:  bored
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Sunday, November 28th, 2004
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11:12 pm - Casey's so drunk...
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"Do birds fly? Do hippos hippo?" -Casey
current mood: amused
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high
